complexities

my relationship with george is so complex. we have been an officially titled couple since March of 2005. i am so grateful to have him in my life. sometimes i am completely immature. i get totally silly and giggly and we act like 6 year old kids. sometimes, like last night, we have really deep conversations and very serious moments. i'm glad to have somebody in my life, romantic relationship or not, who i can fluctuate with. george is my very best friend and most favorite person. having said this, he also knows how to push my buttons and tick me off more than anybody! since we're both very passionate, we have a lot of high-highs and low-lows. it's something we're aware of and working on. but mmmm the high-highs are so euphoric.

i moved into my new apartment a couple weeks ago. of course, he helped me move, even while i was at work. as much as i love george, i'm grateful to have a place to call all mine. i get to make every decorative decision. i get to have flowers completely covering my bedroom wall. i got to go nuts at anthropologie, and i didn't have to explain that receipt to anybody but myself. life is so absolutely sweet right now, i'm reluctant to think about change. after finding out we've been together over 5 years, people follow up with, "when are yall getting married?" i guess when and if the time is right is the answer. he is still in school for another year. and like they say, "if it ain't broke, don't fix it." it's so great to come home and have alone time with teddy. to actually start to miss my man, then have him come over. but when i'm ready to have a girl's night, he does his own thing and i have my own place to host dinner and wine. when we fight, i have the liberty to tell him to leave without kicking him out of his own place! maybe more relationships would be happier, longer, if each person had their own safe haven.

i'm a happy, lucky, girl.