So to balance out this post, I will be positive and say I have the BEST support network, including my husband, and the Van Meter unit (Mommy, Daddy, and Bud). My extended network is also incredible, and includes Al, one of my favorite people out there. He always makes me feel special, makes me laugh, and HELPS FIX OUR CARS! At the best rate in town!!
I also have amazing friends. I'm sad that my best friend at work won't be there tomorrow. I miss her so much already. But I am fortunate in that I have life long friends around the corner, and though I'm limited in time, we do manage to see each other regularly.
I'm trying to stay centered, breathe, and remain calm. There are a few things that help me with this:
Being Home. Specifically, in BED.
Lighting and Things That Smell GOOD.
|As usual, the Volcano candle by Aspen Bay is a constant in our home. The smell works as effectively as any aromatherapy (for me, anyway).|
|This oil diffuser was an amazing wedding gift from my friend Whitney and her mom. I love the smell of lavender and how the globe changes color with different chimes. The Relax tea helps too, of course. The alarm clock? Not so much. NOT my friend.|
Food. I Have Gained 30 pounds and I Have No Shame.
Food is one of my ONLY indulgences, and I AM NOT HOLDING BACK.
Reading and Daydreaming.
I quickly finished "Skinny Bitch Bun in the Oven" (all about a vegan diet in pregnancy...which I HAVE NOT ADHERED TO but do find interesting) and am currently obsessed with "Spiritual Midwifery" by Ina May Gaskin. I had an actual dream about meeting Ina May at The Farm, and have not been able to stop day dreaming since.
|As a result of aforementioned day dreams, I have thought about how George and I could take one last roadtrip before the baby comes. We have been on two memorable roadtrips, one that had no set destination (but included Ruidoso and Marfa) and of course, our Honeymoon from San Fran up to Seattle.|
Thinking about the hummingbirds on the porch of the gorgeous cabin we stayed in for the Tinker Family Reunion, and knowing that during that calm, beautiful, loving time in the beautiful mountains, we made a baby...thinking back on that makes me feel calm. So often, I daydream about our most recent Ruidoso trip, and try to allow that sense of calm to flood over me so Baby can feel it and remember why she came to us.
Oh, and the last thing I CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF?